SKIN

Can someone explain why, at 34 (I'm really 29), I'm dealing with skin problems...acne!? I've already named them -- Thelma and Louise. Hopefully these gals won't stay with me much longer. I ordered Skin ID, a specialized product line from Neutrogena. It's 100% guaranteed, so what do I have to lose?

drama, drama, drama

This has been a tough week. monday night was child drama. last night, dog drama. I let Presley out to potty and he usually runs to the house right behind ours to go. his doggie friends snickers and lilly live there. i let him out, went back to the kitchen, returned outside and called him....nothing! in my house shoes, i started walking down the road, by snickers house. no site of my fluffy white pup anywhere. as i walked back to the house, a million terrible thoughts ran through my head. i ran into the house, told the kids that presley was lost and i was walking to the college. they barely acknowledge me or what I was saying. they certainly didn't see the tears falling down my cheeks. i walked briskly to the college, calling him the whole way. i passed a few people and asked if they had seen him, but no one had. i run back home and decide I need to get in the car to search for him. I take mason and rylan with me, and leave dalton at the house so he can call me if presley returns. we make 2 trips around the immediate area and are making our last pass through, when mason yells -- I see him! I slammed on the brakes and presley runs and jumps in my lap. WHEW! mason has always been my child that finds everything, now add PETS to his list!

Thank goodness Monday is over

So much for my relaxing evening. I’m convinced that I should plan for chaos and then be pleasantly surprised if that is not the result. I'm not feeling much like filling in the details of my evening, so I'm moving forward.

Tonight I'm getting my hair cut. I've been letting it grow and it's starting to look long, but....I think it may be boring. We'll see what I end up with! It'll be a surprise, even to me.

Mommy Time Out

Can I get a mommy time out? Please...
It's Monday and we've had an action packed, fun filled weekend that has left me exhausted! I managed to make it through the day but I am falling fast. Tonight we're having chicken fajitas and I HOPE, HOPE, HOPE that I can take a nice, long, uninterrupted bath and turn in early. Wish me luck!

Oh Baby!

I LOVE babies. The sweet smiles, their soft skin, their smell. The tiny feet, the face of a sleeping child, their giggle. God's most precious gift.

Gay's son Matt, and his fiance Ana, welcomed their first son, Brycen Matthew into the world on Tuesday, October 21st.

Isn't he just adorable? Unfortunately, I won't get to hold him for about another month. They are expected to visit Texas during the Thanksgiving holidays so I can love him up! :-)

New mommy and daddy! Congrats, and welcome to the world of no sleep!

Losing Weight

Yesterday began Day 1 of my weight watchers/weight loss journey. Historically speaking, diets fail me, or maybe I fail on diets. Whatever. I decided to blog about my “new way of eating” because I think making yourself accountable really does work. And if I know it is possible that someone is reading my blog, I will be accountable to not only myself but others as well. Yesterday I had NO Dr. Pepper. And for those of you that know me well, this is huge! Yes, it’s just day one but a giant step in the right direction.

I promise not to bore you with every detail of consumption, just bear with me while I get this going!

Kids....Gotta love them

I just love the innocence of children. My boys are constantly voicing their random thoughts. Last night I was watching TV with mason and rylan. A commercial came on that showed two people getting married. Here's our conversation:
mason: mom...when 2 people get married, how does that put a baby in the girls stomach?
[GULP! I stayed silent for a moment, trying my best to defer the question and maybe come up with a good response.]
mason: mom, did you hear me?
me: Yes. Can we talk about it tomorrow?
mason: but can you just tell me a little bit right now?
[remember rylan is here too, so i don't want to say too much]
me: When the boy and girl are in love, they kiss, and he puts a seed inside her that makes a baby grow. I'll tell you more tomorrow
which translates into, let me search the internet and find the best and most simple approach to explaining the birds and the bees.

Gotta do some research!

Random Thoughts

The boys and I slept later than I had planned. It’s a school day. I need to be up by 6:45 (6:30 if I’m energized), but I suppose I pressed the snooze button one too many time and at 7:20, I realized I could see daylight! Somehow, I made it to work by 9, a little late, but I made it nonetheless.

Matt and Ana are expecting their first baby boy sometime today! I am anxiously awaiting the call!

Doggies. Part of me wishes I would get over this pet fascination. I don’t know where it came from. It’s probably been with me for a long time. We always had dogs and cats as I was growing up, but not until Rylan was 2 years old, did I REALLY want a doggie companion. Maybe it was a yearning for another child, and I could replace that need with a pet which is much more low maintenance! This little girl is such a cutie. Her name is Cassie and I want her! http://www.petfinder.com/petnote/displaypet.cgi?petid=11964361

Politics. I don’t even know where to begin. I’m not much of a political person but I do realize that this election is very important (not like any other election is less important) and it will probably be a close call, so my vote will count. I’m just still not sure who I’m voting for.

I took pictures of me & my tutu last night, but I’m not willing to put them on my blog. Apparently I see myself through rose colored glasses…J I know I’m not small, but when I walk out the door every day, I take a look in the mirror and think – not too bad, Tobey. Photos, on the other hand..especially full body photos…yea, well, don’t show a good version of me. It’s definitely not the same me I see in the mirror. SO….tomorrow I start weight watchers. I’m usually not good when it comes to diets, but I’ll give it a try. 20 pounds by Christmas is my goal.

My mind is all over the place today.

Dancing with the Stars!

Have I mentioned how much I love this show? Tonight will be super-fun! I may even dance around in my tutu!!!!

Crazy~Happy~Frightened

if one can experience all of these emotions at once, leave it to me. i missed a few days of my "happy pills" and although I'm back on track, it sometimes takes several days before my body realizes it. i think i have cried more in the last 2 days than i have in months. LOVE CYMBALTA!

amidst my fury of emotions is a big one that keeps jumping out. i hate to be a whine bag, but...good things don't normally happen to me. in the last year alone, i've lost a business, filed for bankruptcy and divorced. that is one year people! i've been so happy lately, apparently i'm beaming from delight. because i have this negativity stuck in my soul, i think something is going to happen that will change all of my beaming. i'm so happy, i'm terrified. ~~clenched fists, biting nails~~

I need therapy!

Life is short

Life is short. You never know when you or your loved ones could be taken away in an instant. If there is something important you want to do, don't wait. If there is someone who needs to hear that you forgive them or love them, don't put it off.

AMAZING

I had the most amazing weekend. Absolutely amazing. I don't know how long it's been since I have been this happy.

Happy Daze

About my blog yesterday...am I bitter? Nope. Because it is out of my control. If I learned anything in the last 12 years, I've learned that you cannot change anyone but yourself. You can beg and plead or hope silently that someone will change but unless they want to---it will not happen. So, be miserable in your existence. Know that your hurtful words will not hurt me, but will only make me stronger!

With that said.....today is another day. I had a rather relaxing evening last night -- minimal arguing among the kids. We found the escaped momma hamster. My love muffin called this morning to make sure I woke up, so I wasn't rushing around the house. It's a good day! :-)

HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY

Letter to Fam.

If it applies to you, well, then you know it. If not, disregard!

Some people never cease to amaze me. Ever heard the phrase, blood is thicker than water? Well….some people haven’t. Apparently to some, family means “the people you can talk about and make assumptions about, yet never confront”. Just because you THINK you know about someone, or have “heard”….well, that’s an assumption. If you want to know something, ask. If it bothers you, talk. If you don’t have the balls, drop it. People may have questioned decisions I have made over the last year, but if you haven’t talked to me personally, then you probably really don’t know. If it’s jealousy, admit it to yourself and move on. Get counseling. That’s what it’s there for. You may not agree with everything I do, but have you ever thought that you’re not perfect either? I don’t think I would have made the same decisions you did, but I’m also not out talking about it and putting YOU down. You are not in my shoes. You do not know me.

New Diet....whatever!

I just read an article about a new weight loss plan. The divorce diet. They say divorce is near the top of the list of the most stressful life events, its second behind death. Women are “forgetting” to eat. What the hell is that? I could forget one meal, but I’ll betcha the next meal I make up for it. If anything I’ve gained weight. More alcohol is to blame I’m sure. Oh well….I’ll seek out the next crazy, fad diet

When it rains, it pours

no explanation needed