friday blubbering

that's about all this blog will be -- blubbering, about the fifty thousand thoughts swimming in my mind.

we had family pix taken, i bought the cd so i could order christmas cards, still haven't decided on a card design, still haven't ordered - may not make it out this year :-(

december 27th will mark the one year anniversary of the birth and death of my sweet little nephew logan. my heart aches knowing what my brother and sis-in-law must be feeling. you never expect these things to happen close to home and when it does, it shatters your heart.

my sis in law (shannon)'s mother was diagnosed last week with an aggressive type of cancer. she chose not to endure chemotherapy and the family is makign the most of the time they have left with her.

tomorrow (12/12) my 2nd oldest brother lynn turns 50! we're celebrating 50 years of LIFE with him. tonight. i still have to figure out what else I'm making for the party...baked potato dip and.... ?????

i agreed to be rylan's room mom. next friday (12/18) is their christmas party and i'm basically "in charge". i've had some feedback from a few mom's but pretty much winging it. i have 24 5/6 years olds to impress, i'm a little flustered. i have to plan the crafts and get everything to make them work -- maybe this weekend i'll have time to sit down and review my list.

i REALLY want to teach my kids to be selfless. i know its an age thing, but dalton is all about dalton. the world revolves around him, what he wants, where he wants to go, how he wants to do anything. it is very frustrating. as a parent, you learn (quickly) to put your kids before yourself. i know i was all about me earlier in life and its a lesson i learned and adapted to. i can't expect my 12 year old to understand, can i? well....my start is that tomorrow we begin our volunteer work for the spca of ellis county. i have a huge heart for animals and my kids do too, so i decided that would be something they would enjoy and help with - and learn about helping others and not being so self centered.

On a positive note, my eyelashes are ROCKIN' today!

i really want a nice, sit down lunch. i need sandie time. i hope she's free.